12-12-12 ramblings

I cannot for the life of me believe it’s nearly mid-December! And happy 12-12-12!

I think part of it is the fact that I live in tropical paradise…where it’s sunny and shorts weather pretty much 24/7.

You might think I’m crazy, but I desperately miss boots and sweaters. And every once in a while I’d like to be cold, and get a hot cup of coffee, cuddle up on the couch and read a book while it rains. Or snows. That is definitely something I miss.

When I lived in Sacramento I thought I had it pretty good because we didn’t have a true “winter” but here, there is really only one season. You can say it’s two, if you count the rainy season but I haven’t gotten much of that yet so I’m still on the fence if I believe there is more than one season in this beautiful place.

I’m lucky in the fact that my wonderful parents are here visiting. We grabbed the pup and hoped in our truck yesterday and drove around about half the island. I got to see a bunch of places I hadn’t stopped yet, even though I’d driven by all of them. It was nice to get off base and get to hang out with my family. And I was reminded how lucky I am to live here.

I think I’ve been taking it for granted a little bit, and feeling sorry for myself.

As Wes was leaving for work today, he turned to me and said, “Ok babe, have a good day, I’ll see you later!”

My response? “Oh yeah, I sure will….I have no job, no car and my friends aren’t here.”

And then I look at my little puppy who is always so happy and playful, and she looks sad, pitiful and sleepy. So I think to myself, wow, my bad mood is rubbing off on this sweet little girl.

I’ve had a cold the last few days so I think I’ve just been not feeling good physically, which made me mentally start to pout.

This is not an easy life we lead. In the last two years, we’ve lived in four different states, moving over 8,000 miles.

On the way I met some amazing people who I will never forget. I have made life long friends who I miss dearly every single day.

It’s not easy leaving those behind that “get you.” I don’t know about the rest of you, but there are only a handful of people I could stand to see every single day. Sometimes, you just need a break, right? Well those that I could hang out with every day, work with every day, even live with, I’m thousands of miles away from.

A dear friend of mine is going through a ridiculously rough time and even if I was there, really there is nothing I could do to take away her pain; but at least I could be there for her.

But now I’m reminding myself that you know what, that’s part of the deal. I’m not complaining here, I’m just thinking. And if one single person comments on here that “this is the life we chose,” or “stop complaining you live in Hawaii” I will scream. I’ll applaud your use of freedom of speech and the fact that you are reading this piece of trash blog…and then I’ll scream, and possibly not talk to you for a day or two, just so you know.

But the point is, I’m healthy, I have a roof over my head, I have a wonderful husband who makes me happier than I ever thought possible, we have a wonderful marriage and we have wonderful families. We have three amazing furbabies that I am ridiculously thankful for and I miss Athena every single day and cannot wait until she is here with us in a couple months.

Yes, I am a lucky girl.

I just miss all my favorite people. You know who you are – thank you for being my friend. Be expecting phone calls soon so we can catch up, I’ve been crappy on the phone lately (partly due to this ridiculous time difference).

I love you all.

 

(Yes I did wait a few extra minutes after finishing this post to hit the publish button at 12:12 pm. I suck haha.

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