PCSing isn’t for the feint of heart

It’s that time, again.

Didn’t we just get here?

There are so many things we haven’t done. Haven’t explored.

What were we doing all of this time? Having more babies, apparently.

Yet here I am. Staring at all my crap, wondering how on earth it will fit in a smaller house. Wondering where I’ll give birth. Wondering if I’ll make friends quickly. Wondering if I’ll hate it.

I don’t want to go.

It sounds awful depending on who I ask.

Amazing if I ask others – but I find that hard to believe.

And all I can do, in this moment. Is cry. Both my babies took their first steps in this home. Our 3rd, kicking around and wiggling, will never know this place. Nor will he or she remember the next place. Maybe not even the place after that.

I’ve been asked, how do you do it? How do you deal with the changes? How do you cope?

The truth is. I don’t. We have no choice but to do it. And live through it. And finish it.

Because this is the life we’re in. This is the path we’ve landed on.

So for tonight, I’ll cry, staring at the spot my now 3 year old walked for the very first time. He probably won’t remember this home either.

But I will.

I always will.


See me on Uplifting Anchor!

Hey guys! Super excited to share this one with you!

My amazing friend Lindsay is absolutely awesome! She has a wonderful blog called Uplifting Anchor that I highly recommend you check out.

Here is a guest blog I wrote for her that she published today!

You can see Uplifting Anchor on Facebook as well.

Last Night Was a Good Night

There are some things that seem so distant, so unreachable, that you can never fully picture them.

You can’t visualize what something will be like because it seems so impossible.

But luckily for me, I had one of those magical, unreachable moments happen last night.

Every night when my husband is home, we put our sweet little guy to bed together.

Tonight I put him in jammies, we brushed his teeth and took him into his room. W read to him while I tried to snuggle him in his bed. Just like we do each night, but we swap, one reads while one stays.

But tonight L seemed like he wanted us both, so W laid down next to the bed so neither one of us had to leave him.

L wiggled and scooted around like he always does. But then…our Itty-Bitty started kicking. The strongest kicks I’ve felt with this pregnancy, high by my rib cage. I didn’t move for a moment, enjoying the happy baby.

I finally thought to get my husband’s attention, and he rested his hand there, and behold! A kick!  W hadn’t felt kicks like this yet. He’d been deployed almost my entire first pregnancy, coming home just days before the c-section. He’d felt movement then but not kicks like this.

This is never a position I thought I’d be in. Having my husband home is a novelty in itself it seems like. But cuddling with our sweet angel of a boy while he drifts off to sleep, while our second little miracle bounces around happily.

Thank goodness for these two little miracles we never thought we’d have.

Life as we know it

A lot has changed since I wrote my last post. For one thing, L is now 9 weeks old and totally amazing.

Next is that after my parents left, W’s mom came to visit, left and my mom came back. I definitely had some struggles and needed all the help we could get. So thank you moms for everything’s!

In addition to having a newborn and a c-section we’re in the middle of the moving process. We are leaving the beautiful island of Oahu and headed to California! I’m excited to be back in my home state, closer to my family and sadly still far (but closer still) to W’s family.

Our furniture has been packed and taken so we are living in a large empty house with a mattress on the floor, a small table with two metal chairs and two “easy chairs” if you can call them that.

We borrowed a coffee pot and a couple other items and bought some crappy stuff from Target to be able to sort of cook for ourselves while we repaint walls and wait for late August to come around. Then we should arrive around the same time our stuff does.

This also means not only do I never have free time (silly baby) but I also don’t really have a computer. So this post is coming from my iPad…I’ll be a little low tech in the picture department for awhile.

I’m hoping to sneak in a post during nap times so we’ll see if that works out, hope everyone is having a great week!


Farmer’s Markets, hiking and amazing friends.

So this was one of my favorite weeks in Hawaii, and here’s why.

My friends are awesome.

Between St. Patrick’s Day parade and dinner, hiking, DIY projects, farmers markets and more…it’s been a great week!

For St. Patrick’s Day we headed down to Waikiki to watch the parade. Then we headed to Moose McGillycuddys for lunch and green beer.

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Next we hiked to Kaiwi Shoreline trail. It was gorgeous. I’ve been to the Makapuu Lighthouse hike several times and this is just below it. For awhile it looks like you’re in a desert but once you get down to the water it’s really pretty!


It would have been a good hike to take Roxy on. It was fairly flat. It was definitely warm out, and we were there around 11 or so.

This week I also found my inner appreciation of farmer’s markets. And bonus, there are several of them in close proximity to where I live.

I love them for several reasons:

1) Inexpensive, quality produce.

2) Locally grown stuff.

3) Great place to do some people watching.

4) A chance to check out local businesses.

5) Free samples.

6) Yummy local cuisine.

7) Good place to hang out with friends.

So yeah, those are just some of the reasons while I really enjoy farmers markets. We went to one this week and last week and had some AMAZING food. Fried kale ‘sushi sliders.’ Except that I left the ahi off. Don’t they look delicious?


Bananas wrapped in okinawa sweet potatoes, fried with sugar on the outside.


Chocolate and ice creams that are made with island grown ingredients.Delicious local bread (white chocolate and blueberry).


Needless to say, I’m stuffed.

But I love that there are so many local places here that get all of their ingredients from the Hawaiian Islands. It makes it so much fresher, since everything else has to be shipped here.

Basically, my friends (pictured here and not) are awesome, and I can’t wait for some more adventures! Between board games, movies and discussions on all things femalogical and loserest and everything in between.

So answer me this in a comment below….What are some of your favorite places to check out with your friends?

And just for kicks….


And this girl: