It’s that time, again.
Didn’t we just get here?
There are so many things we haven’t done. Haven’t explored.
What were we doing all of this time? Having more babies, apparently.
Yet here I am. Staring at all my crap, wondering how on earth it will fit in a smaller house. Wondering where I’ll give birth. Wondering if I’ll make friends quickly. Wondering if I’ll hate it.
I don’t want to go.
It sounds awful depending on who I ask.
Amazing if I ask others – but I find that hard to believe.
And all I can do, in this moment. Is cry. Both my babies took their first steps in this home. Our 3rd, kicking around and wiggling, will never know this place. Nor will he or she remember the next place. Maybe not even the place after that.
I’ve been asked, how do you do it? How do you deal with the changes? How do you cope?
The truth is. I don’t. We have no choice but to do it. And live through it. And finish it.
Because this is the life we’re in. This is the path we’ve landed on.
So for tonight, I’ll cry, staring at the spot my now 3 year old walked for the very first time. He probably won’t remember this home either.
But I will.
I always will.
This is how we’re surviving in an empty house with a newborn.
We are in the process of moving to California (yay PCSing).
So if you are keeping score, c-section, newborn and moving nearly all at once! Yikes.
The movers picked up our furniture early so it will meet us in California. Meaning we had to sort what we needed to keep for us, the pets and L who wasn’t quite yet 2 months yet. He will be just over 3 months when we fly back to the mainland.
We are allowed 2 suitcases each but I managed to fit most of L’s things in a carry on sized suitcase with a few exceptions.
Here’s what fits in his bag:
- 3 swaddles
- About 5 newborn outfits (he was wearing that size when I packed)
- 5 0-3 month outfits
- 2 3 month outfits
- 2 outfits in different sizes for the plane
- 4 swaddle blankets
- About 8 receiving blankets (he spits up a lot and I’m not doing laundry everyday).
- A couple other toys
- Wash cloths, 2 towels and travel size baby wash
- Baby first aid/grooming kit
- Baby monitor
- two books so we could read to him
We also kept all our cloth diapers, cloth wipes, changing mats and wet bags. We have enough where we can wash diapers every 3 days. I still have room in his suitcase to fit some of this.
Other items we kept that don’t fit in his suitcase.
- Pack N Play
- Car seat and base
- Diaper bag
- Pump, a couple bottles, storage bags and brush
I know it seems like a lot but we have used all of it. We also borrowed a swing from a friend.
We found a used rocking chair on base we bought soil handsome place to sit for late night nursing sessions.
The one thing we have missed the most is the diaper change station part of the Pack N Play and the caddy that attaches to the side. Instead we have a mat and our supplies on the floor.
I also miss having a baby bath tub. Our sinks are not conducive to bathing him in one of them without an additional vessel.
So right or wrong, that’s how we’re surviving with a newborn in an empty house!